One Thing that I always find hard when I go out is feeling like an outsider. I often go out clubbing with my friends which I always love, however I find it somewhat upsetting that majority of the time, I feel like the only gay person in the whole room.
Of course I have been gay clubbing, which to note I thoroughly enjoyed, but why should I feel like I have to go “gay clubbing” to be around gay people?
Its not about wanting to be surrounded by the ~gayness~,on the contrary, it's about being able to feel comfortable within a place of mixed diversity. Wanting to see more gay people in “straight clubs” isn’t because I want to find someone to get with on a night out, nor is it to find a quicky, nah. What makes me sad is that I feel like the only person on the dance floor who has the same feelings and experiences. All my friends will be getting off with guys or girls, talking to people and I feel like I'm judged just being judged by that guy at the bar as 'the hot girls gay best friend', which believe me is annoying. I am not a trophy prize for people to show off.
What I want is to be able to go out and walk into a room where I can be myself and not have to put my guard up. Gay clubbing is great, but then some of my friends feel the way that I do in straight clubs. And why should I have to go to a “gay” designated club to feel comfortable? Why isn't there a place where both parties can feel like they belong?
No matter what, despite feeling this, I think its extremely important to just be yourself and enjoy yourself in life. Despite feeling like an outsider I try my very best to be who I am and I i've met some great people because of it.
I just think it would be nice to see a little bit more diversity in the clubbing scene.The music should be torn down so people don’t feel like they are being categorised because of their sexuality. Rant aside in conclusion, always be yourself where ever you are and try to make change if your suffering with this problem because you are not alone and if you try and be yourself and meet some people, you might just get lucky and meet someone who truly gets you the way you want them to.